I started feeling really inspired while I was in my car commuting home from work today. I had the album Takk… on, by Sigur Ros. Listening to Hoppípolla then Með Blóðnasir really leaves you with this I can do anything feeling, something that I felt had been missing for a while.
The end of September has honestly been a big sigh of relief. There was a lot of tension between Kim and I, mainly because we both have been pretty demanding of Todd’s time. I think, too, there was a lot of comparison going on between the both of us, a lot of scarcity thoughts and negative fantasies that were entertained. Fortunately, it has really felt way, way lighter in terms of the emotional stress factor, and it truly seems like Kim is pulling her weight and working very hard to acclimate to what it takes to choose to be in an alternative relationship.
I went on a few “dates” the past month. Two of which were pretty mediocre, but nothing terrible or anything. One guy, named Joe, is a TV writer, and it’s been really rad to hang out with him. He lived out in NYC for a while and he definitely has that feel to him. I think it’s mostly that we can fuck around and make jokes and be sarcastic and real or whatever. I think he’d get along with Todd.
I also spent two different occasions getting to know another fellow named Evan, who I met via Tinder. Surprisingly, it worked out (in that he was accepting of my non-monogamous lifestyle). The reality is that most people would either unmatch me or totally not be into the whole idea. The first instance, we got coffee and talked for a while. The second time, he had led a hike up in the Berkeley hills, the “Fire Trails” they call them, because of how it’ll make your legs feel.
The views were absolutely breath-taking. I don’t know if there is a better hike in the immediate vicinity. We alternated between the quiet darkness of the redwood groves to the sun-soaked yellow of the paths that wove between the eucalyptus groves. We spent time sitting on each bench at each vista, quiet, or chatting about something out of the ordinary.
He’s in New York City for two weeks. I truly hope I get to hang out with him again.
Bobbi and Jeremy are in Prague and Croatia for two weeks. All these travelers! I dropped them off at the airport on Saturday evening. It was such a peculiar, lovely feeling to give Jeremy a farewell kiss at the terminal, as he was going off to go on vacation for his wife’s birthday. I love the both of them! I’m glad we are in each other’s lives.
Tonight I plan to roast some squash. I am pretty excited about that.