I am feeling very…despondent.
(or shitty)
but only for the time being.
I loathe stagnant days
and feeling like i’m trapped. Like nothing can change.
(that’s probably why I want to keep my hair short.)
I stood outside and watched my dog eat her food and
suddenly the sound of night hit my ears
and I felt like… my life, my house, everything is just kept inside a glass dome.
Like there were speakers in the darkness, playing the sounds of the crickets and the cicadas and the fighting animals.
because you can’t trust darkness.
and my dog’s bright, orange eyes scanned the darkness, and she saw nothing.
how long can this possibly last?
death by music, if only.
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