That’s what my shirt says. It’s from Urban. I like its intricate designs.
I feel weird being a senior now. I like the power and my privileges, but I feel like we’re all birds, pinned down. Crammed into the proverbial cage we call High School. Shall I assess my teachers?
1 & 2: Laureni. Sweet and friendly Spanish woman. Very careful of the environment. Easy course. She’s like one of those kind Spanish aunts who bring the yummy dishes to a party.
3: Thomassie. One of the most eccentric teachers you will ever meet. She’s totally passionate about Literature and reading, it rubs off on you. I love teachers, anyone, with passion.
6/7: Kirch. Kirchie-poo. Sir Kirch the Geek. He is so.. adorable? In a really weird, awkward way. I feel like he’s one of those geeks that are super nervous around females. I feel like I can take advantage of him, hahaha. He has these weird mannerisms and is so quiet and shy. It really is cute.
9/10: Kim. I can’t even assess her because she’s just this quiet Korean lady. She’s married, apparently. I feel like she would be one of those tea shop owners.
Yeah, that’s basically it.
Nothing extraordinary ever happens here.
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Two weeks: Rutgers for a weekend
Three weeks: Jessica’s 17th birthday.
I hope Jackie brings Gary. Because.. because I might like him. A little. Well, I just have to say that it’s nice being single, especially since i’ve become more confident and out going. See, now that I’ve attained those attributes.. I can at least grab a little attention, enough so other people can notice my personality. Before it was always me being quiet.. and me waiting for some chance of fate to bring someone to notice me and then somehow notice my personality. I’m in no way becoming an attention whore.
A thought for my readers: How innocent do I seem to you? I was on the phone with Jackie for five hours last night, and we talked about a lot. A lot. Our pasts, futures, people. She mentioned the sub-sections of hook-ups, like there are the ones that are done in public, in front of everyone, when you’re drunk and slobbering over them, ones that take place in public, but the girl goes through three guys through the duration of the night, or there are the ones that take place at the car door or the front door. Very different situations yield many results. Would I, could I kiss someone, or make a move on someone only after the second time i’ve met them? Okay lol it sounds normal, but to me it really isn’t. Just because I need substance and an emotional connection, however fleeting it is. I think i’ve gained this new found power, not to control guys, but I feel like I can actually attract them, if I wanted to.
I kinda hope Jackie brings Gary to Jessica’s party. (He’s Portuguese.. and he looks white, sort of, but he’s so cute) I don’t know what will happen. I just kinda want to talk to him again, hang out. They talk about bringing cute guys to possibly hook up with but it’s strange hearing myself think of this. Look at me, over-analyzing all of this.
Whatever happens, happens.
arhghgla. Okay, I sort of want to. But is that me?? Is that okay??? I feel like I need to ask permission.
Blaaaaaaaaah.
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