So begins our odyssey

TEN BAJILLION THINGS TO SAY!

Of Montreal was… A M A Z I N G. There is no show I have seen as creative, unique, eccentric, wonderful, orgasmic and passionate than last night’s. I felt like I was in a drug-induced dream land. Everything was whimsical and full of energy and I was basically in the front. I knew I wouldn’t be disappointed.

AND, my new friend asked me to hang out with him last night! :) :) I was dead tired after the show (I felt as if I had given my soul to the moment) and he was supposed to meet up with me at the South Orange station. I got a text saying that he didn’t have his car, so we wouldn’t be able to hang out, so I quickly jumped off the train and called my cousin Jun. His bus from VA was going straight to Penn Station, so I was to go with his parents back to his house. THEN I get a text from him saying that he does in fact have his car, but I already got off the train :(

JUN’S HOME!!!! :D I’m so happy about that too :)

AND
SHAIMAN IS HAVING A PARTY TONIGHT!! :D
(guess who’s going to be there?!?)
My sister agreed to cover up for me, i’m taking her and her friend to the Livingston Center to hang out.

AND AND, JIYUN AND REEM TOMORROW!!!! EEEEEEEEEEK.

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Everything.. is going so well. I’m really happy. I really am.
I love living life and finding out all its little surprises.
I love this feeling I have. I love chance.
I love my confidence. I am so thankful for.. who I am.

Wish me luck.

“you’re all just feathers in my nest”

That’s what my shirt says. It’s from Urban. I like its intricate designs.

I feel weird being a senior now. I like the power and my privileges, but I feel like we’re all birds, pinned down. Crammed into the proverbial cage we call High School. Shall I assess my teachers?

1 & 2: Laureni. Sweet and friendly Spanish woman. Very careful of the environment. Easy course. She’s like one of those kind Spanish aunts who bring the yummy dishes to a party.

3: Thomassie. One of the most eccentric teachers you will ever meet. She’s totally passionate about Literature and reading, it rubs off on you. I love teachers, anyone, with passion.

6/7: Kirch. Kirchie-poo. Sir Kirch the Geek. He is so.. adorable? In a really weird, awkward way. I feel like he’s one of those geeks that are super nervous around females. I feel like I can take advantage of him, hahaha. He has these weird mannerisms and is so quiet and shy. It really is cute.

9/10: Kim. I can’t even assess her because she’s just this quiet Korean lady. She’s married, apparently. I feel like she would be one of those tea shop owners.

Yeah, that’s basically it.
Nothing extraordinary ever happens here.
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Two weeks: Rutgers for a weekend
Three weeks: Jessica’s 17th birthday.

I hope Jackie brings Gary. Because.. because I might like him. A little. Well, I just have to say that it’s nice being single, especially since i’ve become more confident and out going. See, now that I’ve attained those attributes.. I can at least grab a little attention, enough so other people can notice my personality. Before it was always me being quiet.. and me waiting for some chance of fate to bring someone to notice me and then somehow notice my personality. I’m in no way becoming an attention whore.

A thought for my readers: How innocent do I seem to you? I was on the phone with Jackie for five hours last night, and we talked about a lot. A lot. Our pasts, futures, people. She mentioned the sub-sections of hook-ups, like there are the ones that are done in public, in front of everyone, when you’re drunk and slobbering over them, ones that take place in public, but the girl goes through three guys through the duration of the night, or there are the ones that take place at the car door or the front door. Very different situations yield many results. Would I, could I kiss someone, or make a move on someone only after the second time i’ve met them? Okay lol it sounds normal, but to me it really isn’t. Just because I need substance and an emotional connection, however fleeting it is. I think i’ve gained this new found power, not to control guys, but I feel like I can actually attract them, if I wanted to.

I kinda hope Jackie brings Gary to Jessica’s party. (He’s Portuguese.. and he looks white, sort of, but he’s so cute) I don’t know what will happen. I just kinda want to talk to him again, hang out. They talk about bringing cute guys to possibly hook up with but it’s strange hearing myself think of this. Look at me, over-analyzing all of this.

Whatever happens, happens.
arhghgla. Okay, I sort of want to. But is that me?? Is that okay??? I feel like I need to ask permission.
Blaaaaaaaaah.

Orange Nectar

:) Orange nectar… the thought is heart warming. You know what’s funny? I say ‘warm’ like w + arm, not like whoa + arm. You know I just thought you’d LOVE to know that fact about myself.

I am a busy bee.

Tonight, I hope to make it to Jackie’s house party. I’m not so sure about rides even, and I’m leaving for Atlantic City early tomorrow morning…and I spent my last few “points” going to the Aladdin Smoke Shop (Hookah Bar! Did I tell you I went to my first hookah bar?!) and slept over Jessica’s house. Oh, the way my point system works, basically… I decide what’s top priority on my list of summer activities, you know like parties, sleep overs, going to the mall, going out to eat, going to the movies, and for example, Friday night I would skip out on going out to the movies in order to go out Saturday night to sleep over so and so’s house, for my parents sake. -_- Yes, it gets rather annoying, but it’s a cinch for me.

Ah! The Aladdin Smoke Shop. Big sign when you walk in “MUST BE 19 OR OLDER TO ENTER, PLEASE HAVE YOUR ID OUT.”  ID? What ID? 19? Sure!
Yeah, they don’t card, they liked us. :)  I was hesitant to go because 1) I have asthma, and I’d rather not damage my lungs even more because they already are from birth -_- and 2) Hm, I guess I don’t have a second reason. Fritze drove us in her sweet, stick shift BMW with Tim in the front, me, Jun, and Jess in the back. The shop was actually very ambient. The carpet needed a change, but each “station” which were like caves in the wall all Aladdin like, with sofas and comfy pillows and dim lights. We blasted the Sublime and it was aaall nice. We chose… xtasy (haha Fritze) and Mango! We saw 3 other girls on the other side, and we invited them over and.. yeah, we did it, we each took 4 at once. Hahah that sounds so bad. But it was fun. They had great flavors.. some African something and Tropical something. Yummmy. It was a very interesting experience. And I found out i’m a good ‘giver’ ;) if you know what I mean. Hahaha.

Slept over Jessica’s and… okay, we FINALLY got to try the donuts. It worked for me. It more than worked for me…Jesus lol, but not them :/ I don’t know why. Wow. So, yeah.

I really want to go to Jackie’s tonight. Meeting new people = good. Relax and have fun at a party = good. Change = good.

Atlantic City tomorrow… more party, with the cousins :)
I’m psyched, are you?