I went to the Fun Fair with Abi and Jess last night.
It wasn’t worth the $3 entrance fee.
I went to take pictures.
Justin Hirata met up with us at McDonalds, Jess was shy.
I felt like i’ve known him for a long time, so I talked to him like he was my friend.
Jackie came over too. She’s still upset and mopey about my brother.
and how he’s giving her the silent treatment.
Jessica started talking about how she gets so shy around cute guys. I said that I didn’t, really. I mean, I met that guy, Gary, for the first time and I still was able to talk to him for a couple of hours, Abi thought that was crazy.. she said she couldn’t do that.
Then Jackie said, “Well, Claire has more personality than you do.”
Joan (lying on the floor): What ?!
Jackie: She has more of a personality. She’s intelligent and mature and has a lot to say.
Claire (In her thoughts): Wow.. i’ve never heard anyone say that before…
fast-forward
Jackie: Did you change anything when you moved to your new High school, Jess?
Jess: Not really. Well, I tried to be that smart, intellectual girl–
Jackie: You can’t be Claire! (laughs)
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Eh I sound like i’m bragging, I don’t like that. Point of all this dialog, there are only a few girls like me out there. You know who you are. And they’re scattered among the world.. I need to surround myself with those kinds of people in order for me to grow. I found that the girls I did surround myself with drove me to want to live like them, experience what they were experiencing. I’m only human. And it finally hit me that I don’t do those things for a reason.
I don’t know, I guess I should just wait it out.
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“I found that the girls I did surround myself with drove me to want to live like them, experience what they were experiencing.”
so true.
it makes me sad because a lot of people in high school already found their own little nest, while i am still flying and searching for the place where i can fit in. it took me long enough to realize that what everyone loves to do, ie partying, isn’t me at all. a lot of times i wish i were like everyone else, just bubbly and super social, but i guess there’s a different path for me out there that i still haven’t fully explored yet.